Rage

Today has been, frankly, a shitty day. It all started with a very efficient studying five hours, the end of which returned the last of kandiopintoihin work. Homma has actually been in arrears for a year, but really already from the second year of studies. I went for lunch, gym and sauna, I came home and Rage-Raija got loose again. The Mailbox waited just poo, and the clock was suitably four and not any longer able to make a call. Aside from the Social Insurance Institution, there was a telephone least up to six. MTT was posted on the decline of the B's opinion, which I still have not received. Then I became angry and depressed when I realized maybe split the postman at one of its neighbor's box. Then you have to change the name and change at least, if that is the case. I do not yes would read anyone else's letters, but this house is home to so juntteja people that I'm not surprised someone even if they read the game. Tomorrow'll call you in the morning MTT, but I do not think that there is nobody to answer. There is so strange office hours, or essentially unpredictable. Then I find out whether start looking for new homes, and the name of kiikuttamaan exchange papers with the local register office.

Wednesday

I have not done anything this week. On Monday, I went to college, but only for lunch. Since then I have been at home and only visited the shop downstairs. I stared at the series and immersed in the fictional lives of people. I not only your own life now, too tired to live. To do list is the length of a thousand, and I do not do anything. Okay, I'm lying: I do not have even that list. Those things are in one of the bowels of the e-mail box with this super messed up on the desktop and even messed up my memory. In general, I have been quite clear about exactly what to do, but now I'm really disorganized. There is no strength even to write those lists. At the moment, I guess goes pretty badly.

Comfort food stressful for the heart

It makes you want to write, but there are no words for what I feel.

I lost my grandmother. Sorrow is great, even if it is just to have known, that this will ever happen. I just was not thinking about that now still.

I'm too stressed out from studying, volunteer myself of harvested hommista and finding work placements. It seems that here there was nothing. I'm like divided - another me running so fast, that the thoughts keep up and the other is sleeping under duvets in winter sleep. Tomorrow is the exam, I try to calm down and keep myself together so that I could read, and yet I would go for the exam itself. The heart beats too fast, and I can not get it any assistant

Goodies!

I eat a healthy diet with the exception of delicacies. They have been my problem. No matter how many additives, coloring agents, flavor enhancers, or even if the toxins in them, and still eat them. Plain food, however, I observe. Crazy? Black is. It's like those delights would not apply the same rules as ordinary foods. And there's nothing, if I eat them, say, once a week. I eat almost every day something like candy or sipsiä. I guess I'm kinda addicted to them. Should start candy and sipsilakko now for a little while, I guess they do not otherwise get rid of it!

Convenience Store checkout is often working at one of the wonderful boy. Then I would never buy sipsiä or large bags of candy, but if I buy, so only a 100-gram sachet. I laugh sometimes be such a silly girl! Just as the boy does not then he could guess that I eat a little bit more goodies. Oh, and hardly something to trade cash now anyway interested in my shopping and eating. On the other hand pretty good, that is a limiting factor in my gluttony!

Today I went to 50 minutes of jogging. Week should come to at least a further two hours of exercise more. Otherwise it's been quite an energetic day, and I got early in the morning to the University lectures. I took care of one of degree kurssikorvaavuuden, which I have tried to treat half a year and thinking about it almost every day. I have not yet taken kandintutkintoa out, because there is just such stupid little things to be done. Although I love the university, then slowly starting to feel like I figure that this step would already be over.

Healthy life

Yesterday, wonder of wonders, I went to mass workout. Punttijumpassa, which is probably similar to the pump body. trained with weights of all the movements, and there is no aerobic hyppelyosuutta. Lunge has always been a nightmare for me business, and indeed yesterday was no exception either. I did it without weights, and I still could hardly cope. It was forced to cheat and take short breaks. After an hour the legs were wobbly jelly and I thought, I can not get home to capsize a furious 300 meters walking distance. Today I have been well aware of the fact that I am jumpannut yesterday. AUAU. Must have the strength, the energy to move the body of this! Yesterday I was again the only fat man hours. There certainly was no one over 70 kilos, so I was at least 30 pounds heavier than the other. Nicely I could compare myself to. I guess I have some fat radar, which is looking for as soon as the other fat.

Somehow embarrassing sports, when there is a fat. I do not know why, pitäähän fat in sports and one fat man it's there jumppsalin outside. And rightly expect that either, that the lost weight first and then play sports.

Gourmets today karkkipussilla 110 grams, which did not even mind. It was only forced to eat. Fortunately, only about a little, and I do not in any 300 grams. The bad conscience of finding yet, even the way I have just eaten in moderation today.

After a long time

Almost a year has passed from the time I wrote here last. After all, it turns Writing course in mind, but I just have not got around to it. A lot has happened, but at the same time, however, nothing. I think, however, that I have somewhat grown up, and I no longer have a problem with a bouquet of hajoileva than ever.

I started in the autumn of Master's seminar. Yes, I thought, and sometimes even to graduate. There are no studies so much left as I thought. New Year's Resolutions font will be completed at Christmas 2012, or no later than the beginning of 2013. I do not know whether it will happen, but at the moment it looks quite possible. If only I can get it done my master's thesis.

Well, I promised this year to find their man and alkavani socialize. There is even less success no guarantee either, but at least I do not feel so abominable ällötykseksi that I could use to anyone. I respect myself and I am worthy of love.

Perennial terapiani ended at Christmas. It came as a bit of a bad joint, when I was in the autumn of the quite unwell. On the other hand now when self-esteem is a little better, maybe I can manage without it.

The weight is the same readings as alkuvuodestakin, although in the summer I began laiharin, again. It did not take very long. I got as a result of the fall of the ballet lower back injury, which I have now kuntoutellut. This week's Monday night, I noticed that throughout the day there was no pain. Now I have been three days painless, so may have to go back to the gym the gym to recover those lost muscles.

I eat in honor of Laiharin point with iiiiison cheese cake, cupcake coffee. Later in the evening, then maybe aerobics.

unrealized dreams

I do not remember if I ever told here good wishes as to how I would like to really live. I would like to be a housewife. I lived with a wonderful man and three children in rural areas. Kuljeskelisin outdoors in yellow wellies and I would laugh a lot. Playful with children, kokkaisin much, hoitaisimme plant the land and animals, the inside of a home, I would. We have cats, at least one dog, a pony, and perhaps some other animals. I'm dreaming of a farm, just a peaceful life in the country. As I recall, this is a dream I've had before hurahtamista interior design blogs, but let's not it ever be able to know where to even this inspiration has come. Home Motherhood daydreaming yes already in high school, but the countryside has become thoughts later.

I imagine the life in the countryside less hurried and less stressful. It may be that there I would be stressed out from the darkness and scared of dying burglary. I do not know if I would be any good mother, and we could go on laughing even in the least.

It do not think that this could be my future. However, there is always room for dreams. Dreams to get up in the morning out of bed. How to know it, even if it should be the future husband when I step out the door tomorrow.