Friday the 13th?

It was not today, but if I were superstitious, so I think it was. In the morning I went to the gym and will train there agree an hour, until I went to pukkariin to blow and at the same time, that I have something to behold handkerchief dust in the bottom of the trousers I found. Well, was not, but had small holes which shone through the white cotton-alkkarit. I do not know realizes that no one, probably not, but it still was embarrassed! I then went further cross trainer for half an hour, I thought that just the same when I'm there already was, however.

I came home dropper drinking glass kitchen sink to the floor and it went quite a thousand shards. the biggest Noukittuani shrapnel I took a vacuum cleaner, and lo and behold, it was somehow broken down and absorbed properly at all. Our bathroom mirror cabinet attacked yet by the sink on the floor newish eye shadow, from which the second button (it is dark) broke up and spread around, of course, most of the white kylppärinmatolle. And the vacuum cleaner still does not work properly.

Today, not only was my day. Best to stay indoors and not to touch anything with anything.

Siwan fund anxiety

After the test of Jyväskylä struck anxiety. I do not in any university, while all. I talked about it today with Psykonet and anxiety more. If I can not, I have ties to work and training experiments, ammatinvalintapsykologille ... If I do not now, then the area is not correct! Help! No sector is not wrong, the area is completely correct. I just panicked. I guess I'm not. I study for a BBA and end Siwan Checkout rest of my life.

I've heard that leave my life on one card. Well, I'm glad that I figured even a single card, but it has now heard enough. Should have more plans, contingency plan contingency plan. I can not stand this anymore!

I want to kill myself mainly.

tanned fat on

Wiljami can be a little better today. Soldering iron it by dipping my finger in water and letting it lick it, but then it began to drink even yourself, as long as the cups raised and tilted it appropriately. I'm still hopeful about its improvement. It does not get any better. Since Wiljami now, however, is a little better shape, I'll go tomorrow to visit the entrance examinations in Jyväskylä, Finland. However, in the morning I go to visit my parents yet, and I will remain in Jyväskylä after the test to hang out, so I had time in the evening to watch the Wiljam yet. I do not want to think that I've rejected it.

It is probably quite useless trip to go and see them in experiments. I'm going anyway, at least I try to. I have already almost planned for next year with a view that I can not get into any college. Even now. I stay in Tampere and I read in the open as much as possible studies. I do not get stressed from work or any of that. I'll get myself into shape, that is, at last, begin to undergo regular therapy. That I sometimes should be intact.

I have taken the sun as kesällähän be brown. Admittedly, lightly tanned skin looks beautiful. Brown fat is always prettier than white fat man! It is a summer motto. I hardly dare to the beach this summer. Last summer, I attended a several times, and I felt like a whale. Maybe I will not bother to go there to scare children. Yes I probably scare even adults.

Still time to pääsykoekirjaa.

Wiljami

Figure Wiljami last summer. Wiljami is now really out of shape, does not eat, does not drink, only sleeps and walks staggering, and no longer have even a box to pee. I am so sad. Maybe I do not ever want to no animal. Giving up is too painful.

I have just read today. I had my parents to stroke Wiljam and I tried to solder it by dipping a finger into the water and forced to lick water from it. That they might drink a little. Not very successful.

Why do all the good in my life disappears gradually? Nothing good is ever going to replace.
I went through the trafficking As I went home, wanted to bake brownies mansikkakuorrutuksella. I did not realize to buy sugar. I did not realize that when baked, baked goods usually put sugar. I put it instead Hermesetas, but it does not properly drive the same thing.

mixed feelings

Tampere entrance examination was yesterday. I really have not had time to think about what I think about it. It went badly, I'm sure. Or does it, at least not as far gone, that admission would be no hope. Can now see how the energy is no longer sufficient to Jyväskylä Tuesday's test. Somehow, I had put all my energy into that yesterday, when I would prefer to stay in Tampere. Still should be able to read. Today I mainly just slept.

In the Team took place after the test to eat in New York and had a wonderful time. The food was good, and I took up DESSERT! It was a cozy feeling when it was all the guys there. I have them miss. I am the most sane and happy just the company. We also went to the bar watching fudiksen the opening game and drinking cider. Two cider rang in the end of time unexpectedly. When I came home I was so tired that I did not like too tired to wash the make-up and crash into bed.

Should I have a feeling I'm doing something different after this test? I do not really know. It was difficult, however. I do not know. Pretty useless here now entertain any hopes, I know enough so that it does not go as well as it should have been.

Our cat is sick. It is getting really old, 15-year-old and pretty weak. It is not just eating a lot and not too tired to walk any. Sleeps mostly. Today it started breathing pretty hard. I can not take it off the bed. Then the collapse. I try to be strong and prepare for it in advance, but I just can not stand it. I can not stand the idea that everything ends. I can not stand the fact that everything changes. My childhood has not left any longer.